It's really sad when your friends don't even support your decisions and start calling you a dictator.

 

They try to warn me: you know people are going to think your decision was unfair, right? AS FUCK i know people are gonna say it's unfair. Of course, there are ALWAYS gonna be people who don't agree with your decision. That's the problem with trying to please 44 people all at once, IT'S NOT POSSIBLE! This is the best decision I can make. I've even tried to be democratic about it, I even asked people about it. Yet, that just backfired cuz now everyone wants to be happy, and I can't get that. What my friends don't realize is that I've been torn by this decision for the last month and this is the best I can do. Of course I've conidered all the circumstances. Fine, I guess they thought they are doing this with my best interest at heart, but that just makes me feel like they think i'm incompetent.

 

I talked to Ian... he said i need to be assertive. That is VERY true. I need to make better decisions so that I can say "this is why this is the best way to do this, you can criticize me all you want, but can you come up with a better way to resolve this? well? didn't think so....!"